Monday, September 12, 2005

fate...or isszit???

name:chris aka mk
sex:male
mood:bored/tired/fufilling
char:lame
song of the day:poison(from GTO...great teacher onizuka...not the anime...the drama shown on TV by takashi sorimachi)

comments:

though i say i dun wanna post any more comments... but i juz have to write it down... i dun think there is a song to say wat i am thinking...

FATE...
is it a result of our choices???
or is it wat we will do...and giving us an illusion of choice...

i keep thinking of this question since last year... i can't shake it off... cause deep in my heart... i feel that all is predestined... because.....

i seldom dream... and when i dream... it is more on wat who and how i am thinking in the day... but in my dreams... i dream bout the future... not clear... and not significant... i dream bout things like the feeling i have when i am sitting down and watching TV... it is juz so nostagic... i dream about that exact feeling a few months back... really...

one more vision i have is when i first come in ngee ann... when i come for the matriculation... i dream bout the exact convention centre... the exact place where i am sitting... the exact ppl walking past me... and this all i dream bout a year back... is it destiny that i should come in to this sch??

really... all this disturbs me alot... and let me feel so helpless against fate...
when i ask ppl bout this... they say... fate or destiny can be change...

den i question myself... when u dunno ur own future...ur own fate... how can u change it???
i mean... when u choose between coke or 7up... u tell urself...i wan to change fate... so u choose coke...giving up ur fav 7up... but...wat if...wat if... fate says that u are fated to choose that coke... cause that is ur fate...and u r onie thinking that u r changing fate...without noeing that u r actually controlled by it... so... how can i fight against that fate???

fate is a mysterious thing... it bring happiness...and it also bring doom... and in some sense... it is supposed to be like that... cause wat we do in the future is our fate for now... so... we choose to bring sadness in the future... and so... ur fate will be sad... so... to me... wat u do now... will not juz affect ppl around u... ppl in the future... and also... ppl in the past... though they are unknownly affected...

very difficult to understand... rite??? haha... well... i think like this sometimes... think more... and u can develop more...

den after all this i will ask myself... wat if fate is there... and u r controlled by it...

if fate is there...

wat the use of pursuing ur dreams...
that can be answered easily... to find out whether or not u will succeed... whether or not u will attain wat u r dreaming off... but if that so... the ans... is it really worth pursuing???

wat the use of living...when the purpose of all life is death???
that... i think alot... but den... i still find meaningfull...
though i am a taoist... i think like a freethinker...(maybe)
i feel that wat u see... wat u do... will let u achieve experience.... with this experience... u will be better prepared for ur next life... when i say next life... i dun really mean recarnication... i mean after death... i mean the life after death...i always believe in life after death... not juz recarnication...

in that world... things may be very different... maybe it is like hell... maybe it is like heaven... but i firmly dun believe in both heaven and hell...
the gd will go to heaven... the bad will perish in hell... this is wat humans.. to creat a sense of fairness is trying to create... a illusion... something which is not true...

LOL... i am sidetracking le... well... this i think i will discuss later... in my next post... i think...

P.S--- i will be posting the poison lyrics on the next post... cause this post is simply too long...
---so sayonara... ---

---life after death...death after life... everlasting life...everlasting death...can it really be attained???---

posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 1:16 AM



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