Monday, May 29, 2006
sounds
nth special happen todae as well... but i can finally see jerome... i sounded like i am dying to see him... well... i am not... but jerome is someone which is quite normal to me... well... his voice is very de... wat should i say... i can't hear wat he says... and i dunno y alicia like his voice so much...
speaking about his voice... alicia is very very deeply insulted when we start to imitate his voice and wat he will sounded when he is in bed... we meaning Ben, chick, wz and me... not me much... i juz simply laugh and add nth to the collection of the sounds of jerome... but the rest of them...
lets juz say they r simply over the edge... lolz...
guess alicia is not quite happy over them... cause her nick become "fuking arses" maybe it is not about them... lolz... i dunno...
but to me... i wun say aloud wat i think of him in bed or wat... it will make me seem so desperate or wat... but den again... maybe she is treating us as frens... so she tell us all that... and maybe as a joke among frens...
but i still feel uncomfortable... guess it is gonna be hard to get over her in so short of a time...
in the middle of monday... she start changing her "idol" to jimmy again... lolz... dunno wat to say about this when she start toking about him... so i juz kept quiet and smile at wat she says of "her" jimmy...
make a huge number of mistakes todae... first of all... is i forget to bring my lab notes... resulting in me having to share with others... folo by me ordering a huge huge plate of rice and i am not able to finish it... and still many others... i dun wanna say...
i can feel my sickness crawling up to me like a spider... well... have to start drinking water and skip sch again... stupid illness...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:58 PM
new blog
new blog... new pics... new things... all of this is all brought to u by ben... since he is the one who ask me to change my blog... well... actually i was planning to change my blog... since it has become quite irritating to me le... this new blog is quite pleasant to the eyes... though u guys may have to waste some eye power on the posts i have created... cause the font is white...
this few daes is as usual... nth out of the extraordinary... Ben seems very worried about his results... zheng gen ignored me from DEL till OOP at fri... dunno wat i have done to him... but seriously... i think i scold him too much le... ok ba... i treat him as a real fren... as a real buddy... so whenever he is slping in class... or not paying attention... i will be very very fed up with him... coz i wan him to have gd results... but he keep slping in class and things... haiz... dunno whether he can make it anot...
as for ian... he is hanging out more with us nowadaes... well... dunno wat to say about him... but i treat him as a gd fren anyways...
as for the girls... well... cant say whether they r having a gd time or not... cas is complaining about her life... alicia is totally nuts over jerome... liting is suffering from "lack of usage of tongue" illness... well... dunno wat they r doing...
wz is being the same as ever... shooting me at all possible chances... and would not fail to boast over how he win me in dota... well... nevertheless... i like his straightforwardness... cause... whatever is the problem with him... i will noe it straight away... so i can try to change myself to suit his mood... or try to repent for any mistakes which i have done to him...
Ben is suffering from "depression"... well... i think so ba... he is very very worried about his school work... so ppl out there... plz help him as much as possible... i too will try my best to help him... even if i am to do badly for my tests... if my frens all have gd results... and it is because of me... i will be very very sastified...
firdaus is as goofy as ever... he totally knocked us from concentrating at that room when we wanna prepared for maths test... well... i dunno what he thinks of me... cause he call me yaya... lolz... the meaning of yaya... i never noe... though i can guess it is someone who is very de lame... in both words and action... take mr bean as a example... he is a yaya... that is wat i think... well... but if he nids help... i will be more den pleased to help him in anyway possible...
casilda is having quite a problem with her life... i dunno wat is it... and since that last incident with alicia... i dun dare to ask her wat is it... cause i haven master the skill of asking this kind of private things without harming her... but still i have to do something... rite??? so i tell her to tok to me if life is a bitch... wonder whether it will help???
did my IN test at 6+... lucky me... i rem it at the last min... so i am able to do it...
k le... time to go to slp... tomolo's lessons is packed... and still got suyu in it... i still owe her money leh... dunno whether tomolo can return her... i am broke le leh... try my best ba... GANBETTE!!!!!
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 12:22 AM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
damn sian... this few days has become such a stupid dae for me...
on monday... i was told that she has recieved a message from him telling her to 4get about him... well... as her*doctor* i acc her till 11... and den walk her to LRT... she is having a terrible time now... though i am glad that i can still cheer her up... but i have lots of things to do at the moment... so it always ends up not having enough time...
after consoling her... i went to my fren hse and stay there till 1.30... nid some serious de-stressing... and after that... study maths den go slp...
so tired the next dae i woke up... and as a result... my IN lab sucks... well... suan le... i also heck liao... now i juz wanna enjoy the moments i have now... who noes when i will be gone from the faces of earth... u never noe when u gonna die... rite???
after that maths test... i went home.... quite ok... but i think i have a slight mistake with intergration by parts... well... heck also... dun care much le... cause results or exams r for future things... and when i can reach that future when i can use those things... den i will think more... or else... heck with all those things...
at nite... went to destress... firdaus called me when i am half way through my arcade game... and after destressing... went to my fren hse again... nid serious destressing... folo by serious stressing.... when i nid to study for JAP...
the JAP speaking test is a tradegy... well.... i managed to pass... but juz barely... my partner failed... well... he is such a confient guy before the test as he say he noes all... think he has a mind block in the test... me too... and as a result... i pass barely... haiz...
after the test... back to my own hse... no one's at home... and i can finally relax... listening to music... and lie there on my bed... lolz...now i can finally realise wat someone meant when he say enjoyment is never enough... finally off to slp... slpt for 5 hrs... and den do my usual things... have a real boring life now... but trying to enjoy it as much as i can...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:09 PM
Sunday, May 21, 2006
todae is sundae... meaning sch tomolo... bored... but den again... sch is looking so much better to me nowadaes... so i muz ganbette...
doing nth toade... watching TV... slping... playing with com... nth else... boring dae...
tonite's dinner is about the same as usual... 2 plates r my favorite food... but realli realli strange... i dun feel the smallest bit of eating... my mouth seem to reject food... and my mind too... so i delayed eating till now... which is 9.30... er.... not eating yet... but eating soon... as soon as i get my mouth's appetite back...
decided to start benkioing... er... meaning study... in jap... realli hard to get my results gd... well... muz try... or else i will have regrets... anyway... told someone i am realli disappointed in my results at last sem... and she is most displeased when she find me slacking... so... i have to benkio!!!! have to!!!
now... i think i should study maths... as i have the most feeling with maths... the tutor is nice... realli like my sec sch maths teacher... and that sec sch teacher is responsible for pulling me up and help me get my gd grades at sec 1 and 2... so i have to ganbette... for that teacher's sake...
if i still have time... maybe i move on to DEL... cause i miss it most... though i understand wat the lesson is about.. but i still have to study...
no nid think of next... cause it will be late le... and i nid to slp...
----status of my subjects-----
IN3-----70% knowledge of the current topics taught
OOP2--- 90% knowledge of the current topics taught
DEL--- 30% knowledge of the current topics taught
CSF --- 60% knowledge of the current topics taught
JAP--- 90% to 120% knowledge of the current topics taught( i noe extra things in jap)
EM2--- 75% knowledge of the current topics taught
from all this... i have a rough idea wat my results will be... haiz... maths i have to study now... since test coming... jap i will be studying on tues... cause it is the final exam... DEL i will study as fast as possible... foloing by csf... IN3 and oop i dun think nid... i study when i am at the final exam period...
watever the subject is... hope to get at least 80% for all subject when i am in common test period... and 90% when i am in final exam period... hard... but i should be able to do it... well... i am the one who pon half a year in sec 4... and still get 19... wat else i can't achieve if my heart is set!!!
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 9:28 PM
daily entry again...
wake up... 9.30... back to slp... 11,30... come out watch tv... go back room play com...
lolz... juz watch kindaichi 2005 in youtube... nice... but i think it has fallen short of kindaichi's usual standards... the mystery is easily solved... and not much ppl die... onie 2... but the show is overallly gd... so no more complaints...
after that... into my sis room again... ALONE... haha... finally get to watch utawarerumono le... not bad... finally they got a country of their own... the anime is more or less like romance of the three kingdoms... but there r big changes here and there...
after that... realli nth to do le...watch back usual episodes of school rumble... damn funny... dunno watch how many times le still will laugh...
after that... go slp le... at nite do nth... juz watch wisely and den back to com... finally until now...
stupid dae... dun u guys agree???
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 1:19 AM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
blog for fri!!!
wat should i say... i am sick... due to extreme boredom!!! that is wat my mum say to me... u should go and play more with frens... i will give u some pills to relax... but wat is important is u have to go and relax with ur frens... the doc onie say me has fever and flu... with sore throat...
haha... think my mum is rite... cause this few daes... thinking up of ideas for the new shop... struggling through sch life... accompanying her through her troubles... busy like siao...
miss alot of lesson liao!!! DEL i think me critical liao... attendance low like shyt... how i catch up!!! common test coming le leh!!! wa lao!!! stress ah!!!
stress ah!!! dunno when i cannot tahan den explode!!! still got jap major speaking test!!! and den maths still have to revise... del muz revise like siao... csf is alien to me!!! muz revise like siao also... wa... die liao!!! how i survive!!!
waiting for utawarerumono to be uploaded at youtube... me already download le at my sis com... now they all slping... cannot watch... faster upload!!!
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 1:08 AM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
blogging again... realli becoming a dairiy le... lolz... wrong spelling... dun care la... haha...
todae is wed... meaning??? JAP lesson!!!! damn my marks... onie get 27/40.... and i am the worst of the three... haiz... *depressed* dun tok to me now...*repenting*
okok... enough with the bad things... next week is speaking test... hurray!!! nice!!! i sure can get gd marks... wait... wait... my class mates dunno anything bout jap except those taught in the textbook!!! WAT THE DIAOZ!!!!!!
haiz... why can't i be with sensei and test with her... if so... i can tok watever i wan!!! haiz... daijobu..daijobu... shinpai suluna!!!---->([formal] dun worry) nvm... juz memorise my vocab... and down with those ppl who dunno them... jap is easy... except for the reading part...
nth to do after that... and anxious to go home... yeah... reach home about 11+... with instant noodles... i eat lunch... not bad!!!
the god bros come in again... and as usual i sneak them into my sis room... hehehe... now she's not here to slap me... DOWN WITH STUPID SISTERS!!! haha... jk la...
after that.. get dragged to greenridge shopping centre... they wanna buy new things and cards... so i have to folo them... met a irritating guy there... but nth happen... after that.... get dragged again to fajar shopping centre... there they do nth... juz go for shuang... -_-... *legs r tired* but we did have a fun time there... cause i keep tooting and keep censoring them... like for instance... they say... lets go and buy comics... i change it to... lets go and buy tooooooooT... LOL... sounded like they wanna buy TOOOOOT stuff!!!
hehe... have a fun time there... and back to home after that... duels again... but after that... straight to bed... i am so tired!!!
kana wake up by them and off to duels again... eat dinner outside and den back to computer...
PPL: bet u haven do ur IN test???
WRONG!!! i have done it!!! 100 marks... hehehe... remind Ian to do too... scared he 4get again... the others... hmmm... alicia confirm will do de... shannon also confirm will do... rachel may do... ben slping... shihui is if rachel got do she will do... and the rest la... blablabla....
toking to her again... she heart pain again... haiz... sian diao... still have to console her... and den write this... busy sia... haiz...
----NITE----
a time of the dae i will start strolling if i have the mood... once i stroll all my way to chua chu kang... lolz... late hrs of night is quiet... though lonely... but i have its beautys... all so quiet... u will think more thoroughly and things will get straightened out more... most of my business ideas start from night strolls... juz keep strolling and strolling... listening to music... and the breeze which pass u... shiok!!!! though i prefer being at the rooftop of my hse... there... is so windy... so romantic... and so.... dunno how to say...
if u go up to someplace like that... meaning u r at 27 storeys or more... u feel like u r king of the world... every thing else is at ur feet... u can see orchard from there... u can see the sunrise and set... damn shiok... haiz... too bad kana locked up liao... this june hoildae... gonna buy the metal clips and break the lock le... hehe... illegal though... but we juz wanna go up... hehe...
---end---
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 10:07 PM
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
well... todae's entries doesn't seem to fit my usual reasons for blogging... cause i dun seem to be either sad or distress... er... lets juz say i realli is starting to treat this thing as my diary le...
tues todae... went to lab todae and fully prepared to do wat... u ppl guess??? wrong... i am not prepared to do test... but LAB... damn it... i totally forgotten that todae we r having a lab test... damn it... well... i am not prepared... but that does not means i did not noe any of the stuff... though so... i am realli shaky with ans and have quite low confidence on all of my ans... well... after comparing ans with chick... confidence seem to increase abit... but after wat i heard from my classmates... like some of them blank-out... some of them r confused... some of them r stunned... i feel i have little chance to pass this test too...
after that depressing test... the chick fly away as expected and i have to run to catch up to him... we watch BEAN-the movie-... it is damn lame but heartwarming as well... that place is rapidly becoming of our hangout... after that we start the book-hunt and after 30 mins... the chick finally found it... and without me... he will be searching till now... he is blind... in that sense...
straight to maths after that... totally lose confidence when i dun even noe wat to do... finally we decided to give up and chick happily start reading his "mysteries book" whereas me start finding the library for any martial arts book...
currently i wanna learn ba ji quan, ba gua zhang and xingyi quan... this 3 sets of wushu specialises in different aspects... like ba ji quan is fast and powerful...and is offensive... ba gua zhang focus on "drawing circles" and rounding to the back of ur oppenent... it is defensive and counter-useable...
whereas xing yi quan is more like taiji quan... though not as slow... but it train ur mind and relax ur body... though it dun have any medical components in it...
complete... isn't it???
sidetracking a little... now back on to topic... after finally giving up on my hunt for books... we head for class... the teacher has a new hairstyle... it reminds me of the main char in lion king... though not as messy...slp throughout the lecture and put in my all in the tutorial...
i found out that in my house... i will not be able to learn anything new at maths... onie when the tutor is there... and i ask her... den i can learn... dunno y... becoming dependent on her le... this is bad... i should not depend on ppl much... though i depend on my parents for lots of things...
school things over... now to my social life...
she fell sick todae... she has headache, slight fever, flu and gastric pain... seems like alot of things to happen to one single person... but she make it to the clinic fine and though she wait for an hour... she finally can see the doctor and get some attention about her sicknesses...
went to slp straight back home... well... i think so... best for her... nid to rest more ma...
not much about others... chick is being "pathetic" as usual... Ian gone home after dotaing... Ben went home after a total diasater at IN lab... maybe he dota abit... i dunno... and the rest juz go about their usual businesses...
at home...
went back to home and finally my sis room is vacant... gdgd... that means i can use her com again!!!
began to download my usual anime and stuff and after that shut down... folo by a trip downstairs to buy some ice cream... it is hot... and my sore throat isn't any bit better... so i choose ice cream...
accompany by my god-bro... well... he is cute in ways... but den... irrating at other time... finally went back and go on with our usual stuff... duels... reorganising... and den back to duels... well still not a match to me yet... hahaha...
my parents went to sheng siong to buy things... so i snatch this chance to sneak my frens into my sis room... bad choice... as my sis come back about 15 min later... get a slap in the face and hrs of nagging... now... can u juz shut up??? hahaha... okok... i shouldn't be rude to her... SHUT UP!!! hehehe... psps... jking la...
planning to destress again at the arcade... but maybe not todae... i dun wanna risk it... hehe... and i nid to save money... though every trip there cost me onie fifty cents... one game = 2 hrs... for me...
business...
going on slowly... and i think it has stop le... cause no more customers have called in... and my usual customers r having no probs with their new coms... haiz... can they juz mess the com up and tell me come fix for them???
my sisters r trying to start a business... the idea i will not share... but my 2nd sis seem to have the whole idea rdy in her mind and she is not willing to change any bit of it... she play too much SIMS... i think... cause in her mind... that virtual shop is fixed... now she juz nid to make it real... and from my experenice in the business world... she will fail... CONFIRM!!! she study business... but she set too far goals for her business... and she claim that i am too short-sighted... well... thats her story...
---end---
another long entry again... hehehe... cannot blame me ba... about my whole dae...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 11:09 PM
i did wat i could to maintain watever frenship that remains... so... hmm... i juz have to keep my fingers crossed for a happy ending...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 4:29 PM
Monday, May 15, 2006
lolz... 2 entries in a dae... dun normally do that unless there is a reason behind this... still remember the time when i wrote more then 5 entries a dae... those were the daes...
now same reasons apply when i wrote each entry...
---waiting for you----
i guess that is my decision... i choose to wait... cause of our promise... and the love i see back den... i guess that is a bad decision... but that doesn't mean not to wait will be a gd one either... neither choice i choose will be gd... i understand now... NEITHER... cause each will have its problems at the end... i guess no matter wat i said... u will be saying much more then me... juz let me say this... when u r waiting for a person... it is very very difficult... and when that person u r waiting for keep on spiteing u with other things... well... let's juz say that even the smallest things will spark off a quarrel... and worsen the relationship... i overlook the things and...do the wrong things at the wrong time... now both of us r at fault...
---fault---
i realli dunno who should i blame... should i be the one at wrong or is it u??? i think it is the both of us... maybe i have misunderstand u... and i realli hope it wun happen... now... it is like my angel is actually a devil in disguise... so i think i have done it... i have unreveal a devil from her...
and tok about blaming... i try putting myself in her shoes... and wat will i do if I blame i for all that... at den... i guess i will hide all my real intentions deep...deep into my heart... and never let this person poke into them... i tried saying i am at fault... i noe i am at fault... but everytime she tell me about someother guy... i will flare up and ignore all other damn things... EVERYTIME..OUR CONVERSATION WILL LEAD TO SOMETHING LIKE THIS... and she noe damn well i will feel jealous... and so... her intentions r easily decpihered...
---misunderstandings---
yeah... thats the word... we have so much misunderstandings that we dun even noe how to settle them... everytime i tried to settle one... she will juz say... suan le... nvm... i am used to it... and make it sounded like i am the bad guy here... so when will we settle our misunderstandings???
we did settle some of them... though none of them end in happiness... it will end in quarrels and quarrels... followed by more misunderstandings... oh god... when will we settle them??? er... i dun think we nid to... at the rate things r going...
---hurting you---
yeah... i said tons of times... i dun wanna hurt u... BUT!!! and that is a big BUT... can u stop hurting me too??? haiz... guess u will never understand... cause u r hurting me daily... maybe that isn't intentional... but i will never do the same to u... u said when ppl hurt u... u hurt them back... now let me tell u... i never hurt the ppl who hurt me... NEVER!!! I WILL STILL TREAT THEM WITH KINDNESS... THATS ME... AND THATS WILL ALWAYS BE ME... WHATEVER THAT I DO WHICH HURTS U I DUN MEAN IT... I NEVER MEANT ANY OF THE HARM... wat will u think if u have hurt the one u love deeply when u did not intentionally do it??? self hatred... remorse... disappointment... anger... helplessness... DID U EVER FEEL ALL THAT??? I FEEL THAT EVERYDAE!!!
---END---
i guess i did not ever get over her... lolz... EVER... i am now trying hard... and is best that way... seeing how things r going... juz hope she stop all those things she r doing... that will be bliss for me... realli... i will enjoy sch life much better... EVEN WITHOUT FRENS... i will enjoy them... cause frens which will stay by my side... i have already find them!!!
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 11:41 PM
so here i am...blogging again... becoming some sort like a dairy already... though i have no use of this till i am realli sad of distressed... so here i am again... meaning i am feeling one of the 2...okok... this sentence is from one of my frens... *i wun pretend to be the main character of a tragedy and start crying* yeah... i realli shouldn't feel sad... well... can't help it... the music is making me sad... but it is nice... er... ok la...
having a lot of conversations with someone right now... yeah... we r helping each other with our wound of the heart,,, well... both of us have a deep wound... so it is gonna take some time to heal...
wo ai ni... this 3 words... it is such a powerful sentence to tell ppl u love... but now... wat i have heard is insults... jokes and lies coming from this 3 words... yeah... ppl r using this words like a joke... telling others wo ai ni... i dunno wat they r thinking... except they r trying to insult themselves again and again...
did not go to sch todae... and i wake up at 7... i have 2 hrs to prepare myself for sch... yet... i did not went for it... why??? i try asking myself... i think one of the reasons is i dun wanna get hurt more den i wan... i still loved her... no matter how i try to avoid... no matter how i try to think otherwise... the fact lay there... unmoving...unchanged... i still love her... lolz... it is such a joke... i tell myself...
i juz advise my cousin not to put all ur heart into someone which u love at first... until u r sure it is stable... i suffer from this before... i noe... he is the same age as me... and going to army pretty soon... will the relationship with her be serious??? i dunno about that...
there r times which i think she will understand the situation i am in... things i never share with her i wanna let her understand... yet however hard i tried... one sided love is never gonna to work... one sided effort will accomplish nth... now... i condemn her... i did not... at that time... cause watever small hope i still have den did not disappear... but now...
there r lots of things i never come close to tell her... like my relationship with my parents... like wat did i do at home... like wat happen if ur best fren backstabbed u... i never share those things with her... maybe i never had the chance... maybe i am too eager to noe more about her... i dunno... but right now... i feel like i am one loser in love...
i lose to ppl who never come inside of our love... i lose to ppl which have already stabbed her right in the heart... no matter how i try... looks do matter... no matter how gd ur heart is... wat matter the most is ur looks...
i nid no frens at sch... as to me... there r no real frens with me in the sch... maybe not zheng gen... but the rest of them... i feel helpless... no matter how hard i tried to get into their conversations... i am always left out... i hope it will change... when i started poly... but... from wat things r looking... i dun think i have much hope...
real frens i define it to be caring to u... realli backs u up when u r in threat... i dunno about these... but to me... i dun have such frens... in sch... yeah... none... nvm... suan le... cause i have pass 7 yrs like that... my secondary sch life is wat ppl will call a nightmare... i fight my way through them... i use my fist to make myself a name... frens to me den is so fake... cause no matter how many times i let my guard down on them... they will plunge a knife deep into my back... and den kick me right out of their heart... and den laugh like hell... this is how i pass 4 yrs... trust again... and kana backstabbed again...trust once more... and same results appear...
yet till now... i never let down any of them... i did wat i think is most befitting of a fren and juz go on with life...but i have let down 2 ppl which i swear i shouldn't let down...
she help me with my work... she encouraged me... she did wat she can to make me stand up on my feet... though she never remove the knifes on my back... she is my support... and i thank her greatly for that... yet... i did not wait for her... when she left for japan... she wanna show me she did not mind at all... yet i can tell that she is realli realli sad deep in her heart... i struggled with myself... but she said do not mind her... and i follow wat she tell me to do... wat i have done i can never forgive myself...
we makes fun of each other... her always smiling face always never fail to brighten my dae... in her darkest moments i tried my best to help her... and in return she set targets for me to achieve... in so trying to improve my results... she share with me her life... her everydae stuff... but wat did i do... i disappointed her every time... i fail the targets she set for me... i never stand up to her and said "enough...i am jealous" when she tell me about her being back with her ex... i never stop her from doing things with other guys... and instead...i ignore the daggers in my heart and continue to tok to her... i have let her down greatly...
now those have pass... the pain and disappointment in my heart did not subside...i guess it never will... and it will follow me whereever i go... this will be the punishment for wat i have done... a lifetime punishment...
the main reason i dun wanna go sch todae because i wanna run away from those hidden knifes and stuff... i noe it is the fact... and dun tell me i am too sensitive... once can be a conciendence... twice can be too... thrice can be also too... but when more and more times occur... i cannot deny the fact... yet i dun ever wanna harm her... cause too me... she is important...still!!! i wanna erase away this importance by everydae stuff... but... i failed miserably... i trying hard...nevertheless... but i think i will succeed onie when i did not see her...
sure is a long entry... haha... going to sch as usual tomolo... trying to finish my maths... and boost up my performace in IN... ganbette...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:33 PM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
watching lots of anime at the moment...
school rumble nigikki(2nd term)
utrawaremono
KIBA
Tsubasa Chronicle
Bleach
Witchblade
wow.... realli lots of anime!!! so i think i am found guilty of the term anime freak...
things haven been going so well for me and my fren... well... i have passed the stage of extreme sadness...but she haven... so i am doing all my best to console her... guess it have to go on 2 more months...
for me... well... i dun wanna say much about it.... but it is not as if i never notice it all along... i juz sort of go along with it...
understanding each other is a very important thing in love... meaning 1-sided trust and understanding dun works... well... i noticed it at the beginning... but it is not until now that i learn the lesson...
can i say that i am a sort of extinct species??? i dunno whether i am quilfied... but i am doing wat ppl would never do...and saying things that i would never say... so i guess even if i am not an extinct species... i am a sort of like preserved species...
lock me in a zoo....ppl...
the term starts... and it is already the 2nd week of the new sem... things still happen... arrows r still shot... and i am always the target...
maybe i am the yaya of the class ba... anyway i am used to those arrows.. so
nvm...
but all the arrows dun hurt as much as arrows shot by one single person...
haiz... well... now that things r like this... i doubt those arrows will hurt much... it will onie deepen my understanding of her peronality...since my heart is already dead due to the numerous arrows and swords stabbed in it...
guess thats wat they call by love... when u have to hurt that guy or gal to gain his attention and make urself confortable... but that is something i would never do to the one i love...no... to even frens which i treasure... cause it will onie cause meaningless issues and quarrels...
so that means that i never loved that person be4... cause i did not do all that... lolz... ironic shyt... and there is me who wait like siao over such a person...
now that i have found back myself... i dun think i nid others... cause the me i am searching for is one without love... yeah... without having to hurt the ppl which u like...or for that person's case u hate...
well... after saying all this... it means that now i will strike back at full force... well... i dun think i will hurt her much... cause i am not meant to hurt ppl... but i will try my best... GANBETTE!!!
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:06 PM