Sunday, July 09, 2006

An Empty Bottle

haven update for so so long... maybe because i am too sastified with my current life ba... yeah... i am... my life now though not wat i imagine when i am as a kid... but i should not ask for more...

but no life is without troubles... yeah... i juz have one... i am in danger of debarrment... well... can't say i did not expect that... but den... i realli wan to stay with them... well... i think i wan ba... and so i dun wan to be debar... well... if there is realli a debarrment meeting... i will have lots to say... in the worst situation... i may have to bring out mr lau, acc and mr yee to help me... they have watch me through my first yr... and they should noe wat i am... and how i will fare in the exam...

toking about that... it seems like i will score quite gd for this exam... er... let juz say i still have the self confidence in my studies... till now... my results have only lose to alicia, casilda and liting... so i will be come fourth in class this exam too... er... i think so ba...

actually this is a joke... i can't be fourth... with a GPA less den 3... be fourth in the class??? though our class is bad in studies... but they will fare quite well in exam...

am i contradicting myself??? lolz... i think i am... but den... i can be fourth... if i wan... i can do anything if i wan... everyone close to me told me that... juz that i dun wan... my results in exams have always remain at that line... can't pass it... can't fall through that line either... but i am sastified... i am not aiming for uni... no matter how much u do... it is juz a dipolma... that diploma will not record how well u have done... wat is the purpose of working so hard to have a dipolma... it is understandable if u r aiming for uni... so u work hard... but me??? nah... i think i pass the uni part...

stranger ask: but why did u pay so much attention in class???

yeah... i did pay 200% of my attention every time in class... to me... i feel that poly isn't sec sch anymore... nah... it isn't... sec sch teach lots of bullshit which have no actual use in my future life... but poly is different... wat they teach is wat i will use... to me... i think that the del lecturer is actually quite gd... if u listen to him closely... u will find him giving so much tips... so much... so i juz cannot bring myself to dislike him... though he is a pain in the ass... hehehe...

stranger ask: so wat happen to ur love life???

hmmm... nah... love to me isn't a reality... to me... it is more like a dream... it is sometimes ok to be in a dreamlike state... but u muz always noe how to get back to reality... i dun nid love... though i wan it... i can live without it... but i wan to live with it... but den... i found out that i am perfectly ok without love... i think in everyone's heart there is always a someone in ur heart... that someone u like... to me... i dun hav one now... yeah... i am empty.... in that sense... but den... there isn't any thing bad about this... i feel so free and relax... freedom to me is a blessing...

stranger ask: so do u hav any plans for the near future???

huh? near future??? i take it that u r asking my yrs in poly... hmm... not so much plans... but i have plans for this sem... i am gonna design a game and present to class... er... actually i dun have the ablitiy to design one... but i have the idea... and i got the programming knowledge... it is juz that my knowledge about programming and graphics isn't so gd... so i juz have to edit from other games... steal their gameplay but with my own graphics... i try my best... now... i am still quite relaxed in e-games because the others haven done anything... i doubt they r going to do it any time soon... except firdaus...
about my other modules i juz have to grit my teeth and bear through lessons... if so... i will srcape through exam... of cos... this plans onie work when i am spared from debarrment...

stranger ask: so wat have u been doing this past few weeks?

hmmm... nth much... juz pick up a new anime call fate/stay night... awesome anime... juz that it is a sad ending again... DAMN IT!!! i hate sad endings... why can't she be together with him??? haiz...
recently my god-bro wan a new com... i offer to build it for him... well... his old com is so damn old that he can run out of ram... easy to get a new com... hehehe... should be not charging him any fee... because he is my god-bro... and i doubt his mother has any thoughts of giving me money...

stranger ask: so this is the end of the conversation???

hmmm... i think so ba... not much to say anymore... juz hope everyone is still hanging there... and hope alicia will wake up from endless dreams of jerome... she seems so desperate...
cya ppl!!!

---Wearing masks is tiring... Acting is also tiring... i dun like being tired... so i wun wear mask or act... i juz morph to wat i feel is the most correct person to interact with---

posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 1:14 AM



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