Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Silence(silent)

wat could you have done??? i keep on asking myself... wat will u do if u are in other ppl shoes... again... i think... again i forced myself to understand wat were they thinking... i dun understand myself anymore... i dun even wanna understand about myself... there are things which keep me back from showing my true self... is the real society out there realli a place where u can't show ur true self anymore???

i wanna held my head high and walk the earth... i wanna noe that i am right... and do watever i please... i dun wanna care how other ppl think about me...

my frens... they are so important to me... so bloody important to me that i can sacrifice my own life to save any of them... others before me... i did ask myself... before i go deeper into frenship... can i make him more important den me??? and i ans yes always...

i treat all of my frens as true frens... as true buddies... that we can scold around... play around... joke around... and things... but apparently... i have misplaced my trust in them...

SO... i will hold my tongue... keep myself from toking much... i shall kill my heart... i dun wanna put in more effort into frenships which has no meanings inside... i shall keep my silence... to let ppl not to dislike me... and to make myself dislike ppl... i will change myself into a darker person... a more deep person... i shall kill ppl without them noeing it...

i dislike being myself more and more... this god-damn sense of peace loving... this god damn sense of wanting to outshine others... this stupid sense of saying" u guys must have ur reasons for doing that"

NO... I WANNA KILL EVERY ME INSIDE THAT HAVE ANY OF THIS VALUES... to make myself into a darker person... this is wat i can do... for now...

posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:36 PM



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