Sunday, July 16, 2006

xin li yi sheng

i guess some ppl juz nid to cool down for a while... some times over care and concern will bring harm to the person... sometimes.... the more u care... the more u hurt that person...

haiz... being a doc is realli hard... but i am doing fine... i think i can do wat she taught me to do... Now... with my heart dead... i wun have to worry about whether i will fall in love with my patients anymore...

Alot of times when one knows a person very well... u will be curious to find out more... more and more... till u eventually find out that u have fallen in love for her... but now... i dun nid to worry about those anymore... i juz do wat i wan to do... and juz be done with it...

till now... i have relieved 3 of my frens out of their misery... i dunno wat i can do for them in the beginning... but at least i still have ears for them to say wat they wan... still have my hands for me to pat them on the back... still have my shoulder for them to rest on...

but as things go on... i realise that i can help them... since i am an outsider... i see things more clearly den them... so i can see wat lies ahead of them...

lolz... why am i saying so much about this... maybe it is wat happen ytd... wat happen realli shocked me... and make me feel that if i am not there... god noes wat happen to that girl...

ytd... after work... i was pulled out by yan ping to eat supper... she was normal back den... and the four of us... me, kenny, eeling and her go a long way to eat roti prata... which is outside national library... we tok about alot of things... and kenny seems unhappy about yan ping and me... maybe because he is jealous or something...*me and yanping were mainly the one toking*
after that... we went into a bar for some drinks... remembering my last mistake on drinks... i dun wanna drink... eeling and kenny dun wanna drink too... so yan ping drink alone... eeling allows yanping to drink 1 cup onie... coz she dun like her to drink... but after that one cup... yan ping help me order one x~atasy... after that she juz drink abit from my cup... eeling straightaway become angry with yanping but she never say anything...

after that because of this... i try to drink finish the x~atasy... it taste nice... totally... but den... it is highly achoholic and i think i can;t survive the trip home if i finish one of it... so i juz drink half... by the time i finish the cup... eeling and yan ping has start quarreling and i have to step in to stop this 2 frens from becoming something worse... i can settle eeling without any prob... but yan ping keep on crying and things... after that... she pour all her feelings and thinkings out... and i gotta understand her more after that... i dun wanna say wat she says... but it is very very complicated... i suggest her a solution... and i think it is the onie solution...
she consider it for a moment... and accepted it... but kenny juz can't accept her decision... *i dunno about that...* and after a short while through this confrontation... yan ping fainted... i rush to her side and carry her to the taxi... man... she's heavy... lolz...

we bring her home straight... but eeling say her house is at 3rd floor... meaning that i have to carry her all the way up the 3 floors... but den... i never think so much... so with my 2 hands... i carry her up and up the stairs i go... by the time i reach 3rd floor... i am already very tired... and the stairs to her house still have quite some distance... i am dragging her to her house by the time i reach about half way from the stairs to her house...

after we get her on the floor... her mum told us she suffer from seizures since sec 3... poor girl... and we do all we could to get her seizures under control... i massaged her arms and legs while the others massage her legs and the other hand... *no dirty thoughts here...plz*

after all this we went home... i reach home about 6.30 in the morning... my work ends at 11... and i reach home at 6.30... zai... rite???

posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 9:55 PM



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