Monday, September 25, 2006
chinese lyrics???!?!?!?!??!?!
李心洁 - 《 恋 》
不愿承认 不愿面对
我真的爱你 很深很深
一个笑容 一句话语
都让我心跳 很快很快
每个思索 每个欲望
全被你占据 很满很满
无法平静 不想透露
因为爱你快乐 很久很久
情愿 醉死在梦里
当一切都变得无力
情愿 为你而美丽
当你呼唤我的名字
情愿 默默的隐藏
当它只是一个错误情愿
很久的以后
当一切都被时间冲淡
我只会更爱你
for those who cant see the lyrics i will give u the webby...
http://music.bjzf.gov.cn/html/g/3735.htm
李心洁 对不起我不爱你
打开电脑发个邮件 BABABA
发现你给我的留言 一句话
你说你是真的喜欢
我的头皮 马上开始发麻
原来你 早就已暗恋著我
左想右想胡思乱想 怎么办
总得有个解决方案 才算完
先去聊天 找点灵感
然后回来 给你发个E-MAIL
告诉你 我不能接受
对不起！我不爱你
恋爱不能虚情假意做游戏
天涯处处有芳草
你一定能够找到
对不起！我不爱你
恋爱是个不大不小的事情
你可要想明白
我不是你的最爱
我不想伤害你
I MUST SAY GOOD-BYE
http://music.bjzf.gov.cn/html/g/3730.htm
all 2 songs are from ma la xian shi... still got one song which i never go and find the lyrics... well... i love all 3 of them... haha... i also got listen to chinese songs de hor...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 10:20 AM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
maybe a new blogskin???
thinking of changing blogskin already... wanna find a new layout from another anime... hehe... maybe i go search for it???
here i am... listening to mai-hime songs... suddenly it spark new hope and life in my body... before that... i am feeling quite down and stuff... but never mind... all is gone now...
all i wan is to be release from this endless nites and start to live in the sun... realli very depressing... to keep being in the dark...
teaching sarah how to forget... i tried my method too... but it will truely be useful next sem... so i will wait till den... hehe... cant wait for a new beginning...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 1:17 AM
Monday, September 18, 2006
BLOG JUMPING
Went to all of my class blogs to see wazzup in their life... realli shocked me a great deal as some blogs i dun even noe exists... well... i'm not much of a blog person... rite???
feeling better now... juz thought of a line in a song...
~The answer is always in my heart~
yeah... i keep asking myself this few days whether i can survive through this messed up life... whether can i have the strength to put things rite...
well... the answer is in my heart... so this is again my famous line...
~It is not whether u can anot... it is u wan anot!!!~
tried to put things rite ytd... went to climb bukit timah hill with my parents... my first step in making things rite... my next step is to learn bass from nicholas...have to try to put in effort for superband... this is my dream...
i am still here writing this entry because my life is still messed up.. blogging at 6.35 am??? OMG!!! well... have to do something to fix that...
well... i read firdaus blog also... he is also writing to the class about things... so i think i follow suit... hehehe!!!
to zheng gen: U are my greatest buddy in sch... i may have scolded u or something... but i will onie do that because u are someone i cared for... i noe it is hard for u to be with me... and so i thks u alot for juz being that with me...
to wei zheng: u!!! YOU!!! wat should i say about u!!! lolz... u r always bullying me... *sobsob* but den... i noe that some ppl r like that... and i dun blame u... u say some of the obvious things that i have missed... and u r the only one who can realli stay away from the "war of the class". and so... u r the one who see things wat others cannot see...
to benedict: you r one who sided me with me in the "war of the class". for this alone... i will die for u... i remember telling u that i dun wan ppl to follow me... instead i wan ppl to be beside me and be my frens... if u do juz that... i will do all i can to help u... even in the expense of my own life... u did juz that... and i am realli grateful to u...
P.S: dun hang around computers for a long time... it harms u!!!
to firdaus: u help me alot... whether in sch work or relationships... u r someone who noes how to loosen up the mood in situations... in this war of the class u did not realli take up sides... u juz be the same u in the war... and because of this... i get to noe u better... been with u for both IS modules... would hope to be with u again next sem...
to Ian: in this war of the class, u take the opposing side...i can not say that i dun blame u... instead... of all the ppl in the class... i blame u the most... lol... but den... u r forgiven... lolz... cause i am not that kind of vengeful ppl... *though i tok alot about past grudges...* well... in a war.. sometimes it is not up to u... rite???
to casilda: you r sort of neutral in this war of the class... u give support to all sides... and always give nice advices...though i cant tok to u much in class... i noe that u r a kind person... do not be affected by wat other ppl says... and always be the u... the casilda who is always willing to help...
to alicia: i be frank to u... no more hide ups... no more masks... i juz say wat i wan here... whether is it true anot... watever happen is already history...
i notice that u changed alot... ALOT!!! maybe because of lots of reasons... or something like that... u have realli changed... u r wearing even more masks den the whole class is wearing...
to be frank... i dun understand the present u... but in my heart... i always noe that watever happen... it happens due to a reason... watever u r doing... is not the real u... i always believe in that... and so... i am always waiting for a day the alicia i noe returns...
In this "war of the class", u r the opposing side... u did things that i would never dream of u doing it... I am not a god... i am a human... i get angry also... and the more u do all those things... the more anger is stored in my heart...
BUT!!! watever that has happens already happened... we r still here looking at each other blogs and trying to find out wat each other is thinking... this is most important... so let us juz forgot all those unhappy moments and still be frens... don'cha think???
to rachel, janice and shihui: u 3... realli very troublesome girls... lolz... not janice much... haha... rachel... i think u r a straightforward girl who dare to speak up... u r always one who dare to show her emotion in front of everyone... u wear no mask... u r who u r... u r wat we see u as... shihui ma... u r like rachel... juz that u r more er... "outstanding" den her... hmmm... maybe because of ur orange??? lolz...
P.S: eh... dun bully janice so much ah... take it that i am asking u girls as her "husband".lol!!
*this is gonna cooked up more misunderstandings!!! haiz!!! as if my life isn;t mixed up!!!*
to shannon de gang: lolz... how should i say u guys... fun and fashionable??? lolz... aiya... juz be urselfs can le...
*tired liao... wanna slp so dun wanna type so much... hehehe*
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 6:33 AM
Saturday, September 16, 2006
RECENT DAYS AND MEMORIES
today... today!!! wat a day... wat should i say about today??? lets juz start on how are my recent days...
this holidays to me are all messed up... i feel messed up... my life is messed up... alot of things i never do... those which i should be doing i did not do... but i juz cant seem to have the strength to make things rite again... am i juz weak???
i feel weak... tired... and stressed... i feel alone... helpless... scared!!! i dun dare to take a step forward anymore... i feel that i dun have the strength... my body isn;t reacting wat i told it to do... can i do it???
my body is getting weaker by the day... my mind is getting messed up by the hour... i juz cant seem to gather my strength and make things rite... haiz!!!
my old illness is acting up again... hurts all over... feeling so weak... haiz...
in a realli low point of my life... juz cant seem to be back my normal self... but den again... i feel that i dun wanna be my old self anymore... i juz wanna rest in my weak self and endure it through this holidays... but i juz cant...
my parents are forcing me to work again... circumstances are forcing me to work... i realli dun wanna work... but... i nid the money...
results come out ytd... did not slp the whole nite... er... yeah... one of the main reasons i feel messed up because my living patterns has changed... i totally cant slp in the nite... and den... i slp through de morning and almost the whole afternoon...so messed up...
back to my results... i dunno how to say... i can juz say that i totally dun care wat my results are... it is like... i dun even worry wat kind of grades i get.. did i failed??? did i pass??? did i get good grades??? i totally did not worry about such things...not because of i have confidence in myself... maybe i juz dun have the strength to worry anymore... haiz!!!
nevertheless... i got ok results... 2.75 gpa... with 1AD, 2B and 4C... i am shocked that i have an AD for egames... well... i also not sure y i am shocked... lolz... well the rest... i expect to get an A for IN... but den TJK juz think that i am too noisy for an A... so nvm...
looks like i cant break through the 3 barrier... cant fall through the 2.5 barrier too... haiz...
slpt the whole day ytd... old illness acting up... slpt at morning... woke up at 4... slpt again at 7 after eating dinner... den wake up again at 3am today... feeling weak all over... haiz!!!
online to see other ppl's blog on their result... was realli surprised to see alicia's blog writing to all of us... lolz...
dunno wat to say to that... well... realli dunno...
STRANGER: BUT SHE'S THE ONE U LIKE SO MUCH BEFORE!!!
lolz!!! to say the truth... i realli dunno... lots of things happen between the 2 of us... it's like a drama series... so much things happen... till the extent that i am numbed to it now... maybe because of my current situation... i cant feel anything else besides weakness...
STRANGER: DEN U JUZ GONNA LET IT PASS LIKE THAT???
lets leave it to fate... after so many things... i have learned that trying is realli tiring... both of us are running in circles... chasing something that never stops... lets juz leave to fate... i dun wanna think so much about it too...
--- Looks like i never leave the race once before ---
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 4:21 AM
Sunday, September 10, 2006
superband
yeah... i am forming a band to go into superband next year... things is very hard around here... VERY HARD... we guys have no instruments to start with... no skills to tok about... no money to get wat we wan... wat else can we do???
but den... i am hoping that if we dun have all those things... we muz at least have the enthuisum to go into it... but i feel that my fren is losing it fast... this is realli weighing me down... as i have enough probs to face at the moment and i would realli appreicate it if u dun add more to my burden... i am trying real hard to find us a teacher and get money for the fees... haiz...
i realli wan all of us to be very "into" it... skills??? we can learn them and brush them up later... money??? we can earn them... instruments??? after we got the money... this is easy...
but wat we seriously muzn't lack is enthuisum... haiz...
this is a dream i seldom have... something which to me is still unreachable... but now... i have the strength to reach for it...
so plz dun give me any more discouragement...
My band consist of three members now... me, my fren and firdaus... nid one more...
realli wanna see firdaus's drum skills... at least we still have someone who noes about instruments... lolz...
as for me and my fren... i am trying to be the singer... my fren be the bassist...
so wat i have to do noe is to brush up on my singing skills... lolz...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 4:21 PM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
song lyrics yet again!!!
I look up on the starry sky
My light, tell me
where are you right now?
and who's with you?
Thinking about the fun that we used to have
only makes me lonely
I watched the movie
that we watched together
alone
The person that I love is far away
so far away that I want to cry
When I wake up tommorow
look!
maybe a new hope will be born
Good night!
I still I still I love you
I'm waiting waiting forever
I still I still I love you
And this feeling cannot be stopped (Hi!)
At the edge of my sleep,before my dream ends
I remembered that one day
Your words have a bit of lie
Only you, I won't let go
I will hold you tight
Your promise with Fuwari dissapeared in the dark night
I always search for the person I love
searching forever
surely the eye have awaken,
But I haven't seen the morning
I lost I lost I lost you
You're making making my music
I lost I lost I lost you
Is it not changing anymore? (No!)
The person that I love is far away
so far away that I want to cry
When I wake up tommorow
look!maybe a new hope will be born
Good night!
The person that I love is far away
too far away that I want to cry
surely the eye have awaken,
But I haven't seen the morning
I still I still I love you
I'm waiting waiting forever
I still I still I love you
This feeling cannot be stopped
I still I still I love you
I'm waiting waiting forever
I still I still I love you
We haven't met again have we ? (Ne!)
this is the english lyrics of lost my music from Aya Hirano... love this song...
this song comes out at episode 12 of the meloncholy of haruhi suzumiya...
love this anime as it focus alot on wat is life and how it maybe from different ppls' views...
i also got my views on life but den... not gonna say now... anyway... thats the song... trying hard to sing this song... quite hard... but well... i love it... so should be ok ba...
------------------ ~top 3 anime girls i love~----------------------
1. Shana( Shakugan no Shana)
2.Haruhi( The meloncholy of Haruhi Suzumiya)
3. Al Azif( Demonbane)
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 9:44 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
airport
lotsa things happen during this few days... i feel down... coz most of them are unpleasant things... i dunno wat to do... dunno wat to say... so i juz let it goes with my character... wanna act cool and dun wanna care... but den... it juz seems that my character isn't that kind of a guy...
i did something that i cant forgive myself again... i walk away from a fren in nid... i realli cannot bear doing that... but den... haiz... though i noe this cant reach u... but i am realli sorry about wat that has happened... give me some time can??? i wanna learn how to face u guys again...
was sending my god-bro off ytd... full of mixed feelings when i am in the airport... i dunno wat to say to him... yet i am so worried for him... i dun wan him to go... yet... i wan him to see new things... let him have deeper sense of the world outside of our tiny little estate neighbourhood...
in the end... i juz tell him iterashei...(see ya later)... his fren is realli jealous... from wat i can see from his face... well... i am too... cause i cant get to go overseas as often as my god-bro... well... juz wish he can learn new things over there at japan...
my parents go overseas again... well... actually juz malaysia... i am realli jealous... cause i wanna go... my last trip to malaysia is purely business... cant get to play at all... but now... they did not even tell me be4 they say they wanna go malaysia... haiz... nvm... i can handle myself... loneliness isn;t a strange thing to me... it is always there... with regret and remorse... these three things always accompany when they are out...
feeling so down this few days because of these things... realli hope to break free from all these and have some nice times with my frens and family members... well... hard to get... but hope isn't a rare thing to me... rite???
to alicia and casilda: all the best for ur IA and keep ur moods up...
to casilda: dun let other ppl get to u... if things realli get out of hand... well... talk things over... k???
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 7:44 PM