RECENT DAYS AND MEMORIES
today... today!!! wat a day... wat should i say about today??? lets juz start on how are my recent days...
this holidays to me are all messed up... i feel messed up... my life is messed up... alot of things i never do... those which i should be doing i did not do... but i juz cant seem to have the strength to make things rite again... am i juz weak???
i feel weak... tired... and stressed... i feel alone... helpless... scared!!! i dun dare to take a step forward anymore... i feel that i dun have the strength... my body isn;t reacting wat i told it to do... can i do it???
my body is getting weaker by the day... my mind is getting messed up by the hour... i juz cant seem to gather my strength and make things rite... haiz!!!
my old illness is acting up again... hurts all over... feeling so weak... haiz...
in a realli low point of my life... juz cant seem to be back my normal self... but den again... i feel that i dun wanna be my old self anymore... i juz wanna rest in my weak self and endure it through this holidays... but i juz cant...
my parents are forcing me to work again... circumstances are forcing me to work... i realli dun wanna work... but... i nid the money...
results come out ytd... did not slp the whole nite... er... yeah... one of the main reasons i feel messed up because my living patterns has changed... i totally cant slp in the nite... and den... i slp through de morning and almost the whole afternoon...so messed up...
back to my results... i dunno how to say... i can juz say that i totally dun care wat my results are... it is like... i dun even worry wat kind of grades i get.. did i failed??? did i pass??? did i get good grades??? i totally did not worry about such things...not because of i have confidence in myself... maybe i juz dun have the strength to worry anymore... haiz!!!
nevertheless... i got ok results... 2.75 gpa... with 1AD, 2B and 4C... i am shocked that i have an AD for egames... well... i also not sure y i am shocked... lolz... well the rest... i expect to get an A for IN... but den TJK juz think that i am too noisy for an A... so nvm...
looks like i cant break through the 3 barrier... cant fall through the 2.5 barrier too... haiz...
slpt the whole day ytd... old illness acting up... slpt at morning... woke up at 4... slpt again at 7 after eating dinner... den wake up again at 3am today... feeling weak all over... haiz!!!
online to see other ppl's blog on their result... was realli surprised to see alicia's blog writing to all of us... lolz...
dunno wat to say to that... well... realli dunno...
STRANGER: BUT SHE'S THE ONE U LIKE SO MUCH BEFORE!!!
lolz!!! to say the truth... i realli dunno... lots of things happen between the 2 of us... it's like a drama series... so much things happen... till the extent that i am numbed to it now... maybe because of my current situation... i cant feel anything else besides weakness...
STRANGER: DEN U JUZ GONNA LET IT PASS LIKE THAT???
lets leave it to fate... after so many things... i have learned that trying is realli tiring... both of us are running in circles... chasing something that never stops... lets juz leave to fate... i dun wanna think so much about it too...
--- Looks like i never leave the race once before ---
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 4:21 AM
RECENT DAYS AND MEMORIES
today... today!!! wat a day... wat should i say about today??? lets juz start on how are my recent days...
this holidays to me are all messed up... i feel messed up... my life is messed up... alot of things i never do... those which i should be doing i did not do... but i juz cant seem to have the strength to make things rite again... am i juz weak???
i feel weak... tired... and stressed... i feel alone... helpless... scared!!! i dun dare to take a step forward anymore... i feel that i dun have the strength... my body isn;t reacting wat i told it to do... can i do it???
my body is getting weaker by the day... my mind is getting messed up by the hour... i juz cant seem to gather my strength and make things rite... haiz!!!
my old illness is acting up again... hurts all over... feeling so weak... haiz...
in a realli low point of my life... juz cant seem to be back my normal self... but den again... i feel that i dun wanna be my old self anymore... i juz wanna rest in my weak self and endure it through this holidays... but i juz cant...
my parents are forcing me to work again... circumstances are forcing me to work... i realli dun wanna work... but... i nid the money...
results come out ytd... did not slp the whole nite... er... yeah... one of the main reasons i feel messed up because my living patterns has changed... i totally cant slp in the nite... and den... i slp through de morning and almost the whole afternoon...so messed up...
back to my results... i dunno how to say... i can juz say that i totally dun care wat my results are... it is like... i dun even worry wat kind of grades i get.. did i failed??? did i pass??? did i get good grades??? i totally did not worry about such things...not because of i have confidence in myself... maybe i juz dun have the strength to worry anymore... haiz!!!
nevertheless... i got ok results... 2.75 gpa... with 1AD, 2B and 4C... i am shocked that i have an AD for egames... well... i also not sure y i am shocked... lolz... well the rest... i expect to get an A for IN... but den TJK juz think that i am too noisy for an A... so nvm...
looks like i cant break through the 3 barrier... cant fall through the 2.5 barrier too... haiz...
slpt the whole day ytd... old illness acting up... slpt at morning... woke up at 4... slpt again at 7 after eating dinner... den wake up again at 3am today... feeling weak all over... haiz!!!
online to see other ppl's blog on their result... was realli surprised to see alicia's blog writing to all of us... lolz...
dunno wat to say to that... well... realli dunno...
STRANGER: BUT SHE'S THE ONE U LIKE SO MUCH BEFORE!!!
lolz!!! to say the truth... i realli dunno... lots of things happen between the 2 of us... it's like a drama series... so much things happen... till the extent that i am numbed to it now... maybe because of my current situation... i cant feel anything else besides weakness...
STRANGER: DEN U JUZ GONNA LET IT PASS LIKE THAT???
lets leave it to fate... after so many things... i have learned that trying is realli tiring... both of us are running in circles... chasing something that never stops... lets juz leave to fate... i dun wanna think so much about it too...
--- Looks like i never leave the race once before ---
posted by ~~~TsUbaSa cHRIS~~~ @ 4:21 AM
there is nth for me to say ba...
since some of u have noe me very well...
some of u will noe me abit... so wat i am realli is is all up to u...
