Friday, October 27, 2006
worst day of the month???
i am realli tired now... tired both mentally and phyiscally... frustrated at my character... tired over my neverending contribution...
sometimes ppl realli juz take things for granted... they thought that ppl will always be there... to teach them stuff... but that guys that u guys are using may no longer be around...
tired over so many things... ppl realli dun understand me... my parents dun understand me too... dun understand my fear... my worries... and my condition... they juz take things for granted that i will always be the son in their eyes...
i am so afraid that i am changing... my mindset is starting to change... i am starting to hate all ppl... i am starting to close myself up... not letting any1 close... i dun wanna be like this... yet... so many reasons push me to this extent...NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME AT ALL...OR EVEN TRY!!!
so this is wat u get for being a mr nice guy... being nice and good wun bring u any good... the world is corrupted... all other ppl are trying ways and means to make themselves more confortable... by stepping on ppl... they achieve wat they wan... i hate this kind of world...
but wat can i do? there is so many things that one cannot change alone... am i juz gonna listen to my fate and juz let it controls me???
hopelessness... emptiness... sadness... all this sink into my heart once more... i realli feel that no one is close to me at all... there is no one who i can realli tok to outside... or even inside...
stay positve... i tell myself... no one is perfect... we all have flaws... but... BUT... haiz... there is so much things that i can say i wun say...
finally i wan my class de ppl to understand this one pt of me... I DUN LIKE MY JOB ONE BIT!!!!!! so making fun of me going to work... PLZ!!!!!!
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:18 PM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
birthday today!!!
hehe... today i finally turn 18!!! m18 movies... i can watch u now!!!
today nth much happens... except the fact that i am realli very excited over death note...to the extent of having foolish thoughts... nvm that... i am overall quite cheerful today...
recovering decently now... as i have 2 off days in a row... i am so tired over work... and my performance is dropping too... so this 2 off days i am glad to have...
NIPPONSEI is late at giving me my birthday presents!!! where is my black blood brothers OP and ED!!! haha... once i get the ED... it will be the first korean song in my computer... realli shocked at that time... when they play the korean song... jap anime with korean song??? lol!!!
finally gotta watch my gintama... damn lame and funny anime... juz imagine a bunch of samurai having sword fights... but u can see someone taking a badminton racket?!?!?!?!??!!! wtf is that!!! haha...
having my pay day in next weeks time... finally am able to buy the things i wan... GANBETTE ON!!
~you can only move forward believing in everything~
~if you do something wrong, juz try ur best to make amends and continue moving forward~
+ by Arika Yumemiya+
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:42 PM
Friday, October 20, 2006
A new song!!!
uploading a new song... the OP from busou renkin... damn!!! i love this song!!! it sang my exact feelings out... and also teach me wat to do...
MAKKA NO CHIKAI(tv size)
LET'S BURN!!!
THERE'S NO TIME STANDING AROUND.
I DON'T HAVE THE LEISURE THINKING THINGS THROUGH.
I'VE GOT ALL THE FEELINGS CRAMMED UP IN MY CHEST
AND I AM GOING OUT INTO THE SCORCHING BATTLE.
IT'S SUCH A GREAT WALL OF POWER,
A HUGE DARKNESS IN THE WORLD.
BUT I'LL WILL NEVER GIVE UP( this part is actually i will never lose... but the translator choose to put give up... make more sense i think)
I'LL SURPASS ALL MY LIMITS!!!
RIGHT NOW THERE MIGHT BE A LOT OF THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
BUT I'M JUST GOING TO KEEP FOLLOWING THIS PATH I BELIEVE IN.
ANY KIND OF FOE OR FRIEND IS JUST FINE WITH ME.
I'LL WILL NEVER LET GO OF THIS HAND.
A BLOOD-RED OATH!!!
FOREVER,FOREVER,KEEP CHASING AFTER...
TO THE ENDS OF EARTH,TO THE ENDS OF EARTH, THE COURAGE FOR TOMORROW.
TO THE ENDS OF EARTH,TO THE ENDS OF EARTH, KEEP THE BLAZING FLAMES OF YOUR HEART ALIVE!!!
i specially love this part... forever forever... TO THE ENDS OF EARTH!!!
and the surpassing limits part... it teach me that i have to surpass my limits to do watever u wan to do... i will try my best to do juz that...
working 10 hrs straight today... went home early ytd as i almost faint... so i have to work 2 more hrs... haha!!! so tired... heng tomolo is an off day... and i can enjoy sch life without work... hahaha...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 12:33 AM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
tahan tahan TAHAN!!!
haha... more things for me to endure now!!! juggling both sch and work at the same time... haha!!! HAHAHAHA!!!
am i laughing too much??? wtd!!!
0026 now... sch starts at 0800... and i should be slping... rite??? i am tired... very tired... juz came back from work... but i have 2 current animes i am downloading... and by the time it finish... should be about 1+ le... haiz... should i slp???
both animes are wat i would die to see... should i slp???
nah... dun wanna slp... muz tahan... but... tomolo i wun be able to slp till 12 midnite... can i realli endure till den??? haiz... muz la... cannot endure faint loh... wun die de la... haha... k ba... dun slp...
getting more and more ideas for my death note game... shouldn't be long be4 i introduce it to the whole NP... haha... i wan our NP to communicate more... dun juz tok among classmates... haha...
addicted to a new song which keep on ohh oh ohohoho.... by high and mighty colour... dive into urself!!! and the best is... the female lead singer says out "perfect" at the end of the song... nice... "imagining myself singing" haha... that would only happen when i found myself a band... haha!!!
signing out now.... sch is fun this sem!!! i would be able to learn new technics!!! *sinister laugh*
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 12:31 AM
Monday, October 16, 2006
SCH STARTS LE!!!
SCH STARTS LE!!! meaning 2 weeks have pass from the start of my ordeal... haha... this 2 weeks... how should i say? i suffered disappointment, torment, insults, scoldings and hidden knifes... i enjoyed spilts seconds of pleasure, company of more frens and more information... overall... this 2 weeks have pass quite good for me...
i muz admit... i am realli weak... my mind is so weak... i cannot endure 8 hrs of standing... how am i gonna survive NS??? i am weak... so i muz train myself to become strong... thats wat i decided to do!!!
finally sch starts le... my plan firstly is to juz attend 4 days of sch in this 2 weeks... as i have to work full time... but now... after my ingenious planning... i will only be missing 4 days of my class... haha!!! realli relieved that i am able to attend so many days... after i start enduring this work... i find that going to sch is so so so much easier den going to work... so i dun think i will be poning much in the future... haha... finally i have change my habit!!!
~trying ur best all of the time will drive u mad!!! the best way is to give urself some rest!!!~ CWMKT
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 12:32 AM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
daijobu... honto ni daijobu
blogging because i have nth else to do anyway... lets juz update on recent changes...
added a song into my blog... it is call hoshiakari... from jyukai... it is the ending song of busou renkin... i love this song!!! especially the starting part...
hey, can u hear my voice calling out to you?
is it reaching into ur heart?
DAISUKI!!! haha...
juz get info from my frens that i can get advance salary after 15 days at work... yeah... but my hopes aren't high... first is... i am on probation...* not as bad as u guys think... i am on probation because i am new... as simple as that...* second is i cant get my fav ps2...
i dun wan to have my ps2 because it is still too early for one... and i would be defeated again if i get that...
juz imagine the situation where i have a ps2 and i am about to go to work... i am sure to be controlled by my lazyness and start playing ps2...NAH!!! I AM NOT GONNA MAKE IT SO EASY FOR IT TO CONTROL ME!!!
so i have decided to buy a bike first...*bicycle i mean*
hehe... finally a form of transport... i hate to walk long distance... especially when i have to go CCK lots of time because of my frens... haiz!!!
~NTH WILL CHANGE IF U CHANGE... THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND U... ~
~BUT SOMETHING WILL CHANGE IF U REMAIN UNCHANGED... THAT IS BECAUSE U ARE TURING THE WORLD AROUND~ *BY~ CWMKT~
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 10:51 PM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
failure
I LOST...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 7:29 PM
breaking down
i am breaking down... my lazyness is taking control over me... my whole mind rite now is about how am i gonna escape from today's work... or worse... how am i gonna quit this job... i am realli failing...
everyday... trying my best to drag myself up and go to work is very hard work... i dunno wat to do anymore... am i realli gonna be so weak the whole of my lifetime???
---i feel that if one's mindset starts to change, his character will gradually change too--- ~HARUHI FUJIOKA~
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 6:32 AM
Monday, October 09, 2006
interview!!!
okok... here we go with a interview with mr wang!!!
reporter:I heard now u r working at a petrol station... how is it there???
WMK: not bad... things are gd... uncles are nice... customers are friendly... managers are kind... wat can i ask for??? hmmm... maybe a place to sit... i seriously nid to sit... my legs are aching every sec i stand...
reporter:hmmm, if ur legs cannot tahan, y u still choose that job? considering it is a full time job...
WMK: i think i take this job is... there are no other jobs out there... the other thing is... i seriously nid to defeat someone... my lazyness haven strike because it is the holidays... it is currently putting all its strength into the new semester and is going to attack full out at my weak mind... so i muz strengthen my mind and initatie a secret attack on it...
reporter: u r toking like u treat it as a real enemy...
WMK: YEAH... it is an enemy... it strikes at any possible time... when ur mind is weakest and u cant think straight... it makes ur life miserable... and ur future ruined... so far... i am juz able to make it through my days through some hard work... but if i am going to NS and outside world... it would definately ruined me... no matter how clever i am...
reporter:so how's ur confidence in beating it?
WMK: i am failing... everyday i work... i would wan the time to pass faster... i cant tahan my legs aching... but every time when i nid to go work... i will tell myself... i muz not be defeated... i muz go... this lazyness isn't taking over my body so easily... i muz regain control of my limbs.. i wan to become stronger in the mind... I WAN!!! and so... i go to work everyday...
reporter: i wish u will defeat ur lazyness and become a new chris... so how ur animes doing?
WMK: rite now... i take up 3 more animes... death note, cresent love and negima... Negima is actually a released anime... but the fans and producers think that it is not a gd one... and decided to remake it... from its trailers... it should be good... hoping for a nice time with it... for death note... most of u guys will noe wat i am toking about... as its movie will be releasing in singapore soon... this is an awesome anime and it is the first one which makes me realli salute the author... i totally respect the author...
reporter: so u r doing gd with animes... how bout gaming???
WMK: MAI OTOME ROXS!!! juz because of this game... i am gonna buy one ps2 after i get my salary... other den that... i will buy a bike... for easy transport...
reporter:heard u r going to sign up for superband... hows ur band going?
WMK: i muz admit... the dream of me being a lead singer of a band is a rash descsion... currently, i dun have the thoughts of forming a band anymore... but that doesn't mean i am giving up... though too many things are pulling me back... i muz say... those things are realli hard for me to go through... and i realli have no confidence to say i will go through all of them... so... let juz take it that i am not gonna form a band le... k???
reporter:ok... so that ends our small interview with u... nice time with u today...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 10:11 PM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
current work
My work now is as a petrol pump attendant... hahaha... many of my frens are very surprised y i get into this job... the reason is simple... i dun have any other jobs on hand...
tired now... working juz for 3 days... and i am already feeling the strain... how am i going to survive the month???
work there is simple.. easy and er.... informative... is there such a word??? haha... i got alot of information i wan from customers... about petrol prices... raise rates... lots of stuff... the only problem is my legs cant tahan...
standing for 8 hrs straight is killer... so i will always eat snake... muz eat ah... if not... i sure die de... legs are killing me... especially after that time in the hotel...
everyday asking customers the same thing over and over again... nth special there... but i like this job... of cos i will not be staying there for long... but currently... all things are looking up at me... salary is ok... with lots of incentives and extra money...*plus tips from customers... hehehe* my fellow colleages*dunno how to spell* are very nice to me...
though they are all uncle... haha...
today time pass very fast... maybe because i eat snake alot... haha... tok alot with one uncle... he is a devoted buddlist... and we tok alot about gods, recarinations, ways of life... understand alot from him... and in turn noes more about lifes's law... in short... it is a pleasure toking to him... haha!!!
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 12:05 AM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
wat colours am I to u???
Title taken from a song by suara... i love this song as this song sang about neverending contribution to the one she love... but at the same time asking wat am i to u?
this song appears at the end of utawarerumono, when hakuoro prepares for his neverending slumber... and his love, eruru desperately asking him to stays...
the ending is sad... in a way... as they r not together at the end... but it seems complete as eruru decided to wait forever for her one and only love...
this is the end of utawarerumono... an anime which i have chased for 6 months now...
demonbane... an anime which i kinda like... because of her female lead... *hehehe*
at the end of this anime... al azif send her love kurou back to earth... wishing that even if she die... she would be happy as kurou is safe... but at the last part... she manage to return to earth and stay with kurou...
nice ending... like how kurou stupid ways of care managed to touch al's heart...
an anime i have chased for 5 months... ~end~
school rumble
an absoultely lame and stupid anime describe how triangle relationships can be so painfully fun and exciting...
been chasing this anime for 2 seasons now... the ending for both seasons are a total mystery as both of them conclude nth and leave the conclustion to the next season...
but throughout this anime... u can see the character growth... and the relationship of each character change so magically...
looking forward to the new season...
ouran high school host club...
another thourughly lame anime because of the male lead...
at the end of the anime, tamaki decided to give up his host club juz because he can see his mother again... but our female lead return to her senses and managed to hold tamaki back at the last moment...
like how this anime turn out... and we can see haruhi finally falling in love with tamaki...
4 months now...
suddenly so much anime ended... feeling lonely all of a sudden... but nvm... i get a couple of animes lined up for released...
busou renkin, death note and school rumble sangaki
realli looking forward to all that...
work start tomolo... working 8 hours straight... i never been able to work so long before... frankly... i dun like work much... unproductive work i dun like... so i am gonna use this work to train up my determination to work... i give up easily... i muz not give up... or else... how am i gonna survive in the future???
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:33 PM