WHERE THE OTAKU IN ME!!!!!
omgomgomg... wth is wrong with me nowadays... i dun have the mood to watch animes!!!! wat is happening to me???
stress is building up real quick... things are falling on me quicker den i can say "stop" and zhenggen not helping things when his com is about as gd as my old desktop 6yrs back... am i realli that weak to stress??? hope not!!!
why do all of u guys get to go overseas!!!!!!! and have all expenses paid by parents!!! i have to save every cent i get... so i can stand a chance to go japan!!! haiz!!!
ppl changes... that is a proven fact... i am not trying to say i wanna stop that... but i wanna try changing them back... its hard... and i may well dun hav the mental power to do it... but... for their sake... i muz hold on...
have a fren who have taken a little step for a change-back... have a fren who starts walking down the road of change... can i help both of them???
*pillar of support, i will continue to be. as long as the past u still exist.......*
i dun noe wat to do anymore... things start building up all over me... i feel like i am being buried alive... wanna break out... wanna spread my wings again... but juz dun have the strength anymore... as i still have so many ppl under my wings...protecting them is already my limit... and i think i dun even have the strength to hold my limit anymore...
my grandpa passed away last week... i was stunned by the news... and den... grief... and guilt start pouring in... juz the day before... i was telling my parents i will visit him the next day... but...
helplessness... guilt... tears starting pouring out from my eyes... he is staying at NUH... and i am working at NUS... why the hell did i not go visit him!!!! i wanna return to the past... wanna visit him... nvm if he dun remember me... nvm if he chase me out... i juz wanna tell him i care for him...
my heart teared up even now... seeing that i can never visit him anymore...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:19 PM
WHERE THE OTAKU IN ME!!!!!
omgomgomg... wth is wrong with me nowadays... i dun have the mood to watch animes!!!! wat is happening to me???
stress is building up real quick... things are falling on me quicker den i can say "stop" and zhenggen not helping things when his com is about as gd as my old desktop 6yrs back... am i realli that weak to stress??? hope not!!!
why do all of u guys get to go overseas!!!!!!! and have all expenses paid by parents!!! i have to save every cent i get... so i can stand a chance to go japan!!! haiz!!!
ppl changes... that is a proven fact... i am not trying to say i wanna stop that... but i wanna try changing them back... its hard... and i may well dun hav the mental power to do it... but... for their sake... i muz hold on...
have a fren who have taken a little step for a change-back... have a fren who starts walking down the road of change... can i help both of them???
*pillar of support, i will continue to be. as long as the past u still exist.......*
i dun noe wat to do anymore... things start building up all over me... i feel like i am being buried alive... wanna break out... wanna spread my wings again... but juz dun have the strength anymore... as i still have so many ppl under my wings...protecting them is already my limit... and i think i dun even have the strength to hold my limit anymore...
my grandpa passed away last week... i was stunned by the news... and den... grief... and guilt start pouring in... juz the day before... i was telling my parents i will visit him the next day... but...
helplessness... guilt... tears starting pouring out from my eyes... he is staying at NUH... and i am working at NUS... why the hell did i not go visit him!!!! i wanna return to the past... wanna visit him... nvm if he dun remember me... nvm if he chase me out... i juz wanna tell him i care for him...
my heart teared up even now... seeing that i can never visit him anymore...
posted by ~~~TsUbaSa cHRIS~~~ @ 8:19 PM
there is nth for me to say ba...
since some of u have noe me very well...
some of u will noe me abit... so wat i am realli is is all up to u...
