Saturday, June 16, 2007

Re-Thinkings

When i look into the screen for blogger, i stop for a while... i dun realli know wat i wanna write about... but yet... i have lots to write... im confused... with alot of things that is happening to me recently...


JUZ finish watching the show in TV... it shows how girls can be nasty... and how battles are fought without anyone knowing about it... it makes me think alot... makes me think that... actually... im in it too...

fighting a war is tiring... but this war... has caused me lots of suffering... i guess i had lost my own personality... all i know about is how to get things done the better way... how to let those ppl feel that i can do it... how to regain my confidence...


i lost myself den... hurting all that is close to me... that matters to me... i realli dun wanna do that... but i guess that i becoming more of an asshole day by day... i remember alicia telling me that if u wanna be a good guy... be so good that all ppl compliments u when they talk about u... if u wanna be a bad guy... make sure u can be so bad...

guess im always in the center... wandering between the lines of good and bad... i always aim to be someone who can be depended on... but does that mean u can harm others to protect the people that are close to u??? i feel that this isn't the mingkang that i wanna be...

some of u may think that i am naive... or juz i dunno about how dark can a guy thinks... i been through all that... i been through so much betrayals... so much deceptions... but i still feel that... no matter wat... we should not hurt others... let them be wat they wan... it does not matters me...


guess i have my new aim now... new heading for life... im going to improve myself... to make sure that i can depended on...

posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 9:38 PM



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