Tired? Or losing myself?
Again with updates... well... it juz means that im not going too well with my life...
i dunno wat happen to me... something juz seems wrong... im realli very tired... its that kind of tired that u dun even know that u are tired... guess im not making much sense...
sometimes... i can lose control of my strength suddenly... take for example... i was eating KFC once... and u know i love chilli... well... so i tried to open up the chilli packets... and to my great surpise... i suddenly juz rip it open... and the chilli spilled out on my clothes... i dunno y... but i juz lose control of my strength suddenly...
this few days... i cant even keep myself myself up straight... i even fall down myself juz because i lose my balance on a totally even road...
my concentration... reflexes... and thinking dulled... i juz knocked into more and more ppl everyday... and i realli dun seem to know of the reason...except that im tired...but i dun feel tired at all... *shrugs*
im also getting emotionally tired... i realli feel very tired to try to blend into my colleagues interests... and try to make fun with them... i juz feel... not myself... im realli slowly losing myself... losing myself as cwmkt...
i get angered easily by my closest frens... those which realli means alot to me... i dunno y... maybe because im already fed up with me trying to blend in... and wans them to, instead , blend in with me...
i think that i can handle it... working day and night... without having a life... but... it seems like i cant... im slowly losing control of my own emotions... my life... and my limbs... Can i last till the end?
i need money... and i dunno whether i need a rest or not... so... all i can think of... is to look ahead and walk the path i set for myself...
alot of things happened recently... and it makes me feel bad about things... no matter wat did they do... i still felt that... we shd give them one more chance... but... i have given too much chances... so... i juz kept quiet... and let them isolate themselves... i care... but... i... have given up hope...
Anyone... help me find ways for me to relax... DO NOT ASK ME GO TO NIGHTCLUBS... i have went there... and find myself torturing myself for the whole duration...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 9:25 PM
Tired? Or losing myself?
Again with updates... well... it juz means that im not going too well with my life...
i dunno wat happen to me... something juz seems wrong... im realli very tired... its that kind of tired that u dun even know that u are tired... guess im not making much sense...
sometimes... i can lose control of my strength suddenly... take for example... i was eating KFC once... and u know i love chilli... well... so i tried to open up the chilli packets... and to my great surpise... i suddenly juz rip it open... and the chilli spilled out on my clothes... i dunno y... but i juz lose control of my strength suddenly...
this few days... i cant even keep myself myself up straight... i even fall down myself juz because i lose my balance on a totally even road...
my concentration... reflexes... and thinking dulled... i juz knocked into more and more ppl everyday... and i realli dun seem to know of the reason...except that im tired...but i dun feel tired at all... *shrugs*
im also getting emotionally tired... i realli feel very tired to try to blend into my colleagues interests... and try to make fun with them... i juz feel... not myself... im realli slowly losing myself... losing myself as cwmkt...
i get angered easily by my closest frens... those which realli means alot to me... i dunno y... maybe because im already fed up with me trying to blend in... and wans them to, instead , blend in with me...
i think that i can handle it... working day and night... without having a life... but... it seems like i cant... im slowly losing control of my own emotions... my life... and my limbs... Can i last till the end?
i need money... and i dunno whether i need a rest or not... so... all i can think of... is to look ahead and walk the path i set for myself...
alot of things happened recently... and it makes me feel bad about things... no matter wat did they do... i still felt that... we shd give them one more chance... but... i have given too much chances... so... i juz kept quiet... and let them isolate themselves... i care... but... i... have given up hope...
Anyone... help me find ways for me to relax... DO NOT ASK ME GO TO NIGHTCLUBS... i have went there... and find myself torturing myself for the whole duration...
posted by ~~~TsUbaSa cHRIS~~~ @ 9:25 PM
there is nth for me to say ba...
since some of u have noe me very well...
some of u will noe me abit... so wat i am realli is is all up to u...
