Friday, June 16, 2006
hurt...
it is about 4.49 in the morning... and i still haven slp... not because of the world cup... not so siao over it because i nid to do other things...
training up my body this few daes... training it to endure physical pain... also making my muscles harder... now... my muscles and body r hurting all over... expected... as i sparred with so many ppl in juz one nite... well... not complaining at all...
juz recieved a call to ask me whether will i be down for work for sat and sun... i am actually considering to skip sat because i wanna watch hong fu nui... but it is quite ke lian for my fren to be there alone... so i agreed to work on both daes... well... juz hope my muscles can recover till den so as not to interfere with my work... i have to carry up to 20 kgs of plates here and there... so muscles have to be in working condition...
not much happening today... have quite a mood swing in the nite... i feel so cramped up... hmmm... meaning i wanna have a feeling of freedom... and juz at the rite moment my frens ask me to train... so off i go to fa xie all my frustrations....
punch till my fist have blood... kick till i can barely stand... hurt myself till i have to lie down to recover... gd training i have tonite... gd job... hmmm... it is 4.55 now... and i have to go bath and den off to buy breakfast...
beehoon... here i come!!!
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 4:51 AM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Tsubasa Chronicle
time for an intro of my blogskin... This blog skin shows Sakura... and Syaoran... if u can see him... well... this anime is all about love... er... yeah... about it... and why would a guy like me like this anime so much???
well... i also dunno... maybe i am juz looking for animes to watch... but this anime i have been chasing throughout... so it is a long journey...
Tsubasa Chronicle is about a boy call Syaoran... and his childhood playmate Sakura... Sakura has the power to travel through other dimensions and time... yet she doesn't know this power of hers... One day... she was being harmed by bad guys... causing her to lose all her memories and the will to live... syaoran... who cares for her... was sent to a witch in another dimension to save her... In there... they meet up with their future frens... Fye... and Kurogane...
The witch told Syaoran that in order to save her... she nids to get back all of her feathers in other worlds...*note*(when she is being attacked... her powers in the form of wings... appeared... but it's feathers ave flown away...) Those feathers are all of Sakura's memories... bits and pieces of it... so she nid them back... so as to regain her memory... The witch agreed to help them to travel through worlds... but they nid to give up their most precious thing... for Syaoran... it is the relationship with Sakura...
This results a most unexpected twist of events... Even if Sakura gets back her memories... she wun remember Syaoran at all... Syaoran... noeing that... still agreed with the proposal... so no matter how hard Syaoran tried... his relationship with Sakura will never return to wat it was den...
Fye's and kurogane's are scars and his sword... this i shouldn't mention much... but they are nided by them to do something... After Sakura get back her first feather... she wakes up... juz to ask Syaoran who is he...
If u ppl can imagine... u will noe how hurtful it is to be asked a question like that by ur loved ones... nevertheless...Syaoran still protected her and is more den willing to sacifrice his life to protect her... causing the new Sakura to have a deep affection for him...
if u ppl notice... at the top of my blog there is this title...
HOW FAR WILL U GO... WAT WOULD U SACIFRICE... TO BE REMEMBERED BY THE ONE U LOVE?
so u ppl should have a idea why it is like this... well... this anime is still ongoing... and i am still chasing it... so gd luk to Syaoran and Sakura...
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not doing much this few daes... except train more... but i have found a one new game... It is called Damn Birds... u r a statue in a park... and u have enough of birds droppings and things... so u take ur gun and shoot those damn birds... nice game... i am addicted to it...
btw.... this game is located in mofunzone... so if u wanna try it out... juz stop by that website...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 3:54 AM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
current days...
hmmm... wat to say about my current life??? ok ba... since i haven recieve any calls or email about my exams... i think i passed all... well... i am surprised i managed to pass my DEL... it seems so difficult and i dun have confidence at all that i can pass... well... managed to get it over with... and here is my holidae...
my frens were with me these few days... no matter if it is at work... or at home... or outside... no matter if i am doing something serious... or playing games... or studying, or fighting... they r with me... so... i feel that i am nided in this world...
well... i tell my fren that all of us is nided in this world... no matter by ur family members... ur frens... or classmates... u r nided... so u cannot absent urself from them... i told her that... but at the same time... i feel that if i juz vanish from this world... nobody will notice that i am gone...
hmm... that is the hard part... as i nid to prepare for my tests... and deal with this emotion of mine... well... managed to get it over with as i was helped so much by my frens...
thks so much... i will remember u guys... always...
have quite a number of gd news this few days... my fren is pragnent... well... though this hardly counted as a gd news... as she is juz 19 yrs old... but our estate has one more new resident... congrats...
*hope i can be the godfather of that child**hehehehe*
my arms and legs are all swollen and bruised... all because of the sparring thingy... hands and legs and arms all have blue black spots... but i managed to pick up some skills... and managed to vent some anger... so i feel it is all worthwhile...
todae... i did something which is unforgivable... but no matter wat i choose... i cannot be forgiven... well... i dunno... but i am realli realli remorseful about that... sry!!!
well... decided to get on back to get my body back in shape... all this exams... depression... love affairs... has all contributed to a weight gain... i nid to slim down... and try to seperate my balloon to a bunch of balloons...
hard... but i think i can... GANBETTE!!!
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 1:39 AM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
exams...chats...
with the exam all behind me... i think i can realli realli say that i nid a gd rest...
this term has been a very rewarding term to me... coz i have accomplished things which has been on my heart for so long... things i wanna settle... once and for all... sayonara!!!
my relationship with alicia is saved... i think... after that email i send her... she stop doing all those things...(again those things may have been juz my imagaination) she start to distant herself from us... i think...
maybe she do it to stop anything from ever happening... whether purposely... or not... but i dun think it is fair to her... well... i dun wan this to happen... yeah... i wanna settle this thing... but i also wanna keep our relationship as frens... well... gd things can't happen all the time...
today... i start feeling that she is opening up to me... i mean as a fren... i dunno y i got that feeling... but when she held up her hand... and offered to take my book... i was so confused with things...
i mean... i dunno wat to do... coz i am actually aiming for cas to take that book... but she unexpectedly held up her hand so i GLADLY give it to her...
my hand to the book... the book to her hand... how i wan time to stop... juz at this moment... when i can savour the feeling of frenship with her once more... well... sadly... i let go after she hold my book...
the other thing i accomplished is i finally tok to adam...
at the start... my gut feeling is that the one toking to me isn't him... but den... i juz go along with it... coz i think whether if it is him or not... i can finally tok about things i wanna tok to her... or adam...
with this chat with him... i can finally put down this relationship with her... and start things again... refreshed... as her fren...
my DEL this afternoon is not gd... everytime i take an exam... i will have the confidence to pass it... but this exam i take... lets juz say that i am feeling abit risky about the chances of me passing... well... let juz hope for the best...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 12:58 AM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
lazyness
tues and wed i never go sch... reason being i nid to study my DEL... neglect it too much le... now have to catch up!!! but tues have maths... haiz...
studying like siao over this 2 daes... dun think i will fare well for this common test... mind on too much things le... like OOP... and maths... but den OOP have test on fri... so i also nid to study!!!
am i someone u will think of when u dunno something in studies??? i dun think so ba... i guess i am still not up to the standard... by missing so much lessons... i think i am the underdog of the class le... especially after wat rachel tell me when she said..."when i ask shihui, i will ask how many lessons have u skip... but when i ask u, i will ask how many lessons have u attended"
guess i realli skip too much lessons le... but i am still here in the class... dunno whether i am rite in skipping classes...
sometimes i can understand wat my parents feel when they see me slacking... but den... i juz cant control this habit of not going to sch... guess wat i tell my fren is rite afterall...
lazyness isn't a habit... it isn't wat u think it is... it is some sort of like a illness... some sort of a cancer... it is contagious... it strikes when u least expect it... it happens when u r about to do a thing... it reduce ur determination to nth... it humliates u... even if u noe that wat u r doing is pointless and meaningless... u will still do it... it builds up... till an extent when u can't even control ur actions...
this is wat happen to me... my lazyness has spread to all of my limbs... fortunately... it hasn't invaded my brain... so with sheer determination... i can still control my limbs...
but to my fren... lazyness has taken complete control of his body... no med can save him... i have also try my best to help... his mum too... but den... it is all too hopeless for us to be motivated...
there is still hope in me... so i wun give up.. even if there is juz one percent chance of me succeeding... i will try... plz... minna(everybody) shinjite kunasai(plz believe)
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 12:32 AM