Revived...
hmmm... guess i realli dun meet my own expectations... getting weak and all that...
This few days... been realli thinking alot... thinking bout my stress... thinking bout my frens... my burdens... and stuff... realli been tough for me out there... but so wat??? i can stand up... tok bout my limits... i haven even reach half of it... guess i'm realli tired... so today i slp for the whole morning and noon... refreshed... i can continue with my long journey onwards...
fir is rite about me... i realli whine too much... wats with me??? getting emo and all that... OMG...
juz wanan say... realli have lots of fun that day... thks to u guys... and gals... i can realli stand up to wat ever stuff that is in my way... wun 4get... would never 4get!!!
-Spreading my wings yet again-
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:00 PM
WHERE THE OTAKU IN ME!!!!!
omgomgomg... wth is wrong with me nowadays... i dun have the mood to watch animes!!!! wat is happening to me???
stress is building up real quick... things are falling on me quicker den i can say "stop" and zhenggen not helping things when his com is about as gd as my old desktop 6yrs back... am i realli that weak to stress??? hope not!!!
why do all of u guys get to go overseas!!!!!!! and have all expenses paid by parents!!! i have to save every cent i get... so i can stand a chance to go japan!!! haiz!!!
ppl changes... that is a proven fact... i am not trying to say i wanna stop that... but i wanna try changing them back... its hard... and i may well dun hav the mental power to do it... but... for their sake... i muz hold on...
have a fren who have taken a little step for a change-back... have a fren who starts walking down the road of change... can i help both of them???
*pillar of support, i will continue to be. as long as the past u still exist.......*
i dun noe wat to do anymore... things start building up all over me... i feel like i am being buried alive... wanna break out... wanna spread my wings again... but juz dun have the strength anymore... as i still have so many ppl under my wings...protecting them is already my limit... and i think i dun even have the strength to hold my limit anymore...
my grandpa passed away last week... i was stunned by the news... and den... grief... and guilt start pouring in... juz the day before... i was telling my parents i will visit him the next day... but...
helplessness... guilt... tears starting pouring out from my eyes... he is staying at NUH... and i am working at NUS... why the hell did i not go visit him!!!! i wanna return to the past... wanna visit him... nvm if he dun remember me... nvm if he chase me out... i juz wanna tell him i care for him...
my heart teared up even now... seeing that i can never visit him anymore...
posted by TSUBASACHRIS @ 8:19 PM
Revived...
hmmm... guess i realli dun meet my own expectations... getting weak and all that...
This few days... been realli thinking alot... thinking bout my stress... thinking bout my frens... my burdens... and stuff... realli been tough for me out there... but so wat??? i can stand up... tok bout my limits... i haven even reach half of it... guess i'm realli tired... so today i slp for the whole morning and noon... refreshed... i can continue with my long journey onwards...
fir is rite about me... i realli whine too much... wats with me??? getting emo and all that... OMG...
juz wanan say... realli have lots of fun that day... thks to u guys... and gals... i can realli stand up to wat ever stuff that is in my way... wun 4get... would never 4get!!!
-Spreading my wings yet again-
posted by ~~~TsUbaSa cHRIS~~~ @ 8:00 PM
WHERE THE OTAKU IN ME!!!!!
omgomgomg... wth is wrong with me nowadays... i dun have the mood to watch animes!!!! wat is happening to me???
stress is building up real quick... things are falling on me quicker den i can say "stop" and zhenggen not helping things when his com is about as gd as my old desktop 6yrs back... am i realli that weak to stress??? hope not!!!
why do all of u guys get to go overseas!!!!!!! and have all expenses paid by parents!!! i have to save every cent i get... so i can stand a chance to go japan!!! haiz!!!
ppl changes... that is a proven fact... i am not trying to say i wanna stop that... but i wanna try changing them back... its hard... and i may well dun hav the mental power to do it... but... for their sake... i muz hold on...
have a fren who have taken a little step for a change-back... have a fren who starts walking down the road of change... can i help both of them???
*pillar of support, i will continue to be. as long as the past u still exist.......*
i dun noe wat to do anymore... things start building up all over me... i feel like i am being buried alive... wanna break out... wanna spread my wings again... but juz dun have the strength anymore... as i still have so many ppl under my wings...protecting them is already my limit... and i think i dun even have the strength to hold my limit anymore...
my grandpa passed away last week... i was stunned by the news... and den... grief... and guilt start pouring in... juz the day before... i was telling my parents i will visit him the next day... but...
helplessness... guilt... tears starting pouring out from my eyes... he is staying at NUH... and i am working at NUS... why the hell did i not go visit him!!!! i wanna return to the past... wanna visit him... nvm if he dun remember me... nvm if he chase me out... i juz wanna tell him i care for him...
my heart teared up even now... seeing that i can never visit him anymore...
posted by ~~~TsUbaSa cHRIS~~~ @ 8:19 PM
there is nth for me to say ba...
since some of u have noe me very well...
some of u will noe me abit... so wat i am realli is is all up to u...
